hi. we’re speaking in short sentences today. yesterday I was going to write about Greekman. But that didn’t happen. yesterday, lots of things did happen though. my parents were screaming at each other. My grandma defecated all over herself and the bed, and it took me hours to clean up. she also fell out of bed in the middle of the night, and was very, very scared. then, when that part of the day was over with, after I had my two classes I found out I have an exam tomorrow in anatomy&physiology. and after dinner? tompettyboyfriend called me. and for lack of better terminology, broke up with me. no, i dont want to talk about it. yes, i’m fine. i’m really tired. exhausted really. i dont have the effort to put forth the analyzing of anything. because my brain hurts. lotsly. after that, i had to take a molecular cell biology 10 pt. quiz. which i failed. but then, this morning, the professor admitted to having messed up on some answers, and gave everyone perfect 10 out of 10s. i got my hair highlited this afternoon and now i’m blond. pretty blond. i feel pretty. even though my insides feel pretty shitty. hey, that rhymed. i called off of work tonight. and i will be studying for the rest of evening. that, and admiring my pretty blond hair in the mirror. while silently listening to music bemoaning the fact that everyone, including men i date can say i’m the entire package, smart, beautiful, funny, charming, etc, etc, yet its never enough. i’m tired of thinking. i want a very strong martini. and to hang out with my girlfriends on outdoor patios and drink said martinis. i’m nervous about figuring out this whole loan thing. anymore, i feel numb to everything.  planning my move is very trying and stressful. on me and my family. i’m going to miss my puppy. i also want colbyjack cheese cubes right now. the end.